You're just jealous of my life

simplywas13 @ 2007-11-27T14:10:00

2007-11-27T21:10:29Z

Posting from Stephys sidekick. Waiting for Fall Out Boy to start. I are sooo sunburnt. Will write more laterz.

simplywas13 @ 2007-08-16T13:03:00

2007-08-16T20:06:38Z

I have got to stop reading those romance novels. Shit like that can never happen. But thye're so good. Sherilyn Kenyon, Christine Feehan, Mary Janice Davidson, Laurell K. Hamilton, Norah Roberts.
But see, my books are vampire oriented. So it puts more ideas in my head. I've even started dreaming like the books. Man, I need to stop living in my awesome dream world, and start living in my dull, boring real world.

simplywas13 @ 2007-07-30T12:54:00

2007-07-30T20:07:53Z

Projekt Revolution was the shit.
One of the best shows I have ever been to.
It would have been perfect if we were closer, but at least I got to go.
I am in love with Jimmy Urine, the singer of MSI. He is fucking amazing.
HIM was so good and I got to hear 3 new songs, can't wait for the new album. Ville looked so hot in his beret.
Taking Back Sunday was so good, even though Adam was preaching like he was a baptist minister.
My Chemical Romance was amazing. I am in love with Gerard again. He kept touching himself. I missed the kiss between him and Frank just to get Alicia gum. They played a mixture of old and new and they were amazing.
Linkin Park owns my heart. They were soooo good. Everyone kept singing along with their stuff. I'm sure I pissed off the ugly bitch in front of me cause I kept screaming along to every song from all the bands. Oh well, she was ugly so who cares. Chester is so hot. I'm seriously thinking of going next year, if my car will work by then. Pics coming soon.

simplywas13 @ 2007-06-16T00:57:00

2007-06-16T07:58:08Z

So while I should be sleeping right now since I have to get up in like 5 hours for work, I decided I needed to reflect. I have been thinking that I have been out of high school now for 5 years. I'm halfway to my high school reunion. What do I have to show for it? I mean, I like my life. If I could change some things, I would. But everyone wants to change stuff in my life. My niece graduated today. I am so proud of her. But all I can keep thinking is when I graduated from elementary school, she was only a year old. Damn, now I feel old. I'm finally done with school, for now. I really needed a break. This summer should be awesome. I finally got a car. Too bad it doesn't run. But when I get it all fixed up, it's going to be awesome. I'm working a little more, letting them know that I'm ok to teach someone how to do things there. It's not that hard, but I feel like I have finally proven myself. Now I'm not Sarah's friend that we hired. Now I'm just Jessica. It's a good feeling. My dad is always on my ass, but what are you going to do? He always needs to be in charge; it's my way or the highway. Nothing I can really do but just deal. My best friend just got engaged. I'm SOOOOOO happy for her, she really deserves this. But now I'm wondering when will I find someone for me? When will it be my turn. I'm so happy that she found someone, but I am so jealous. But I'm living vicariously through her. I realize, I've been picky. But I'm not pretty and I'm fat. The only thing I have going for me are my boobs, and even then, they're cute only with the bra. What have I to offer anyone? I've pretty much gotten used to the fact that I'm going to be alone. Bridget Jones but fatter where she's the only single girl in her friend's circle. But I'm not going to have Hugh Grant lusting after me, let alone Colin Firth. I'm a hopeless romantic that believes that everyone finds their soulmates and they live happily ever after. I have to stop reading those fairy tales and romance novels. It just puts ideas in my head. But I do wish the best for her. She's going to have an awesome wedding since I'm the maid of honor, and an even awesomer (?) life with Shawn. I love you Alicia. If anyone deserves this, it's you. Don't mind the bitter single girl. Haha. I wish I could live in my dreams. They are the greatest. I always end up with the guy, or I get to hookup with the star. But now it's time to start living in the now, not in dreams. So I'll see you when I go to sleep. Until then...

*posted also in my blog*

simplywas13 @ 2007-05-19T14:32:00

2007-05-19T21:41:21Z

My b-day was so much fun. Nice how I'm finally writing about it a week later. I'm so glad that Sarah, Carolyn, and Marie went. It would not have been the same without them. It was perfect. I think I'm starting a tradition.
Then on my actual b-day I went to Disneyland with my dad. That was so much fun too. I got a b-day pin and I was wished a happy b-day by more people that day then any other time in my life combined. It was awesome. I love Disneyland. They had it all set up for the Pirates premiere. Plus I got to ride Splash Mountain. It was supposed to be closed and was to "offically" open on Friday, but they opened it to test it. They put in new tracks. Just so you know, they added another drop. So now there's 3 from little to BIG. Haha! Now I gotta concentrate on finals. Thank god that this semester is almost over. I can't wait until May 31st. It needs to come quicker.

I hate being selfish. But you know what, I'm allowed. Thanks for nothing.

Us and the Hollywood Men. I know your jealous.

Me with my new boob shirt.

simplywas13 @ 2007-05-02T11:17:00

2007-05-02T18:23:21Z

So I'm excited but nervous for my birthday. 11 days to go. I'm worried that not everybody is going to get along. But I hope it's fun. I have like a month left of school, it went by so quickly. I'm gonna miss my dance class. It's so much fun, definetly taking it again next semster. I have a photo project I have to do. Darrell is going to expect so much from me, I don't want to be stressed. But I don't think that's going to happen. Dad's still being a douchebag a lot of the time. I think he might be bipolar. He'll be nice one minute, but the next start to yell. Dealing with it is not fun.

Life: Please work out for me.

simplywas13 @ 2007-04-10T14:03:00

2007-04-10T21:03:59Z

Easter sucked. It was another Sunday. Went to the movies and had Taco Bell for dinner. I know, I'm awesome. The only thing that made it a holiday was that I got off 2 hours early. I got to come home and take a nap. But as soon as I actually fall asleep, in walks my dad and starts yelling at me about my room. He was mad that I was on Spring Break and I didn't clean. Boo freaking hoo, it's my break I'm not gonna clean. He needs a hobby that has nothing to do with me.

Tonite, staying at school until 10. Was here at 9:10 for my math class. went out to lunch at 11:30. Came back at 1:45 and I'm staying until then. Kill me now.

simplywas13 @ 2007-04-04T11:43:00

2007-04-04T18:46:45Z

So I heard the same song twice within 15 minutes of each other.

It was "(Everything I Do) I Do It For You" by Bryan Adams.

It was on KOST 103.5 and on the soft rock channel 919.

Is this a sign?

If it is, what's it supposed to be?

Or am I just reading too much into it and wishing it was a sign?

simplywas13 @ 2007-03-26T11:16:00

2007-03-26T18:27:52Z

So I'm not having a good time. I've lost all my confidence in my photography. I know I'm not a bad one and sometimes I'm good, but I've just lost all confidence. This sucks so hard. Plus the one weekend where I really wanted to get drunk and forget the week before, I don't. Why am I always at scanalous parties with scandal going on around me, never with me. I'm always tired because of school. So I sleep all the time. I love living in my dreams, amazing things happen to me in them. Too bad my dreams aren't real, I would be the happiest ever.

simplywas13 @ 2007-03-07T15:31:00

2007-03-07T23:44:56Z

Wow, I haven't written here in a while. My so called "best friend" moved to Vegas to be with her 38 year old boyfriend. It's not really sad seeing as I only really saw her when I worked with her. Which is stupid since I live 3 blocks away from her. Lord knows it's hard to hang out with someone who is soooo far away. I went to go see Hollywood Men. They were amazing. I'm hooked. I wanna go for my b-day. I've been really busy with school. But I like it. I love my ballroom dance class. I love learning how to actually dance, even if some of the guys in the class are hopeless. But I've been soo busy lately since I have 3 night classes. Oh man. Plus, I wanna get drunk, but I can't seeing as the only days I would be able to drink I work the next day, early. Maybe I should just start early. That sounds like a plan. I'm getting really lonely too. I don't get to hang out with my friends as much as I would like too. Damn school. I wanna find someone to be with my I'm a realist, it's not gonna happen. My paents finally met my brother-in-law. I finally got to hang out with both sisters. My dad's still being a controlling douchebag, needing everything to go his way or else. Sometimes I wish I can get a new life. But I like some aspects of my life now that I wouldn't want to change. I guess you have to take the good wih the bad. Whatever.

simplywas13 @ 2007-02-03T14:24:00

2007-02-03T22:26:08Z

My life is over.
I can't log into mysapce.
Damn Tom for starting this cult.
What the crap man.
Luckily, I'm not the only one going through withdrawl.
I need to feed my habit, man.

simplywas13 @ 2007-01-10T12:26:00

2007-01-10T20:34:58Z

I haven't really posted in a while. Things are ok I guess. Christmas was fun, went to Disneyland and went on pretty much every ride I wanted to go on. New Years was lots of fun, even if I only kissed my cup. Sadly we had to part ways at the end of the night. Ha. One of my friends likes the guy I used to be in love with. I don't like him anymore, but it makes me wonder what is wrong with me. Why couldn't he like me back like he likes her now. Oh well. Here's to being an old maid i guess. My other so called best friend is all about her boyfriend who is 15 years older then her. She's gonna be moving to Vegas soon and it sucks. She's changed since she's been with him. She's pretty much already there, nothing is really holding her back. Thankfully on Saturday, the girl I work with, Susie, and I had this big long conversation about her. We got so much stuff off our chests. It felt so good. I finally have someone to talk about it too besides my mom. No one else really cares and I can't talk to her about it since it's about her. Oh well.My niece turned 12 yesterday and she has a boyfriend. Like that doesn't make me feel bad. So I've pretty much been shopping,sleeping, and playing SIMS. At least I can live vicariously through my SIMS. They get more action then I do. So is my life.

simplywas13 @ 2007-01-03T11:36:00

2007-01-03T18:36:04Z

All I have to say is... I own.

simplywas13 @ 2006-11-28T19:15:00

2006-11-29T02:15:33Z

Wednesday: Had a Thanksgiving party at work. Was a lot of fun.
Thursday: Went to California Adventure. Was a lot of fun. Went on a bunch of rides like California Soarin', Tower of Terror (that was hell), all the rides in a bug's life land, and a bunch of other rides that I can't think of right now.
Friday: Went to see Dave Melillo, Cute Is What We Aim For, Reggie and the Full Effect, and Hellogoodbye at the House of Blues with Steph, Norah, Nicole and Ashley. It was a lot of fun even with the little 14 year old bitches who had to try to push their ways up to the stage to see "Forrest!" I haven't been able to hang out for a long time since school.
Weekend was relaxing. It was the first one in a long time. But now it's crunch time with finals and my final photo project. Hooray!!
I'm gonna post the pics later. I can't on the computers here at school.

simplywas13 @ 2006-11-16T17:36:00

2006-11-17T00:36:48Z

"Rely on long time friends to get you advice."

That is not a misprint. That is what my fortune really says. You gotta love the Asians. Besides that, it's still a pretty good fortune. Maybe I can get some advice.

I can't wait until the 12th. I need to be done now. But then I have to deal with my douche-bag of a dad. Hooray!

simplywas13 @ 2006-11-09T12:44:00

2006-11-09T19:44:13Z

This week needs to be over. I'm so glad that i don't have any class tomorrow. Thank you vetrans. I might even get drunk too.

It's been one of those days all week. Meh, please get better.

simplywas13 @ 2006-11-08T13:15:00

2006-11-08T20:15:56Z

Today is gonna be one of those days...

I need sleep, but I have too much psychology to do. Blah!

simplywas13 @ 2006-10-31T16:11:00

2006-10-31T23:11:56Z

"Failure to form an intimate partnership with someone else can cause a young adult to feel painfully lonely and incomplete."

Got that from my psychology book. I guess I'm a statistic or something. Oh well.

Happy Halloween!!!

simplywas13 @ 2006-10-24T14:36:00

2006-10-24T21:34:48Z

I wish things were different.

simplywas13 @ 2006-10-17T11:29:00

2006-10-17T18:30:05Z

So Sunday I went to Knott's Halloween Haunt. It was fun. It would have been funner (?) if I went with someone else besides my dad. I'm setting a goal now. Next year, I'm going with a boyfriend. I don't know if it'll be with my boyfrined, but it will be with a boyfriend. Haha. But seriously, I saw all these couples and it made me sick. I wanna have someone hold me through the mazes and be there when I scream and jump from being scared. There were a lot of hot guys there, but they of course all had girlfriends. I fell in love with the hot vampire guy in the vampire maze. When I walked by him, he put a rose in my face, tempting like. He didn't have to tempt me with a rose. If he said "Come here," I would be there in a heartbeat. Oh man, he was so hot. But I couldn't get a pic of him since you can't take picures in the mazes. I'm going again next Sunday since my mom bought the wrong tickets. We didn't see that they were for next Sunday until we got there. So we get to go again. I already told my dad that when we first get there, we're going to the vampire maze and just before we leave. Maybe I can get a pic of him then. I went on Ghostrider and that thing was the devil. I hated that ride. It was so fast, I was lifted out of my seat like 6 times, and my neck kept going around. I don't like being lifted out of my seat like I'm going to fly away. Not fun. I have two bruises that you can't see on my thighs from the ride. I was holding on so tightly that after the ride, my fingers couldn't straighten out. I got carpel tunnel from the stupid ride. I like pulled muscles in my arms too. Not cool. Oh well, so I'll go on other rides. I'm going to be so dead on Monday though. I'll have no sleep. Oh well.

simplywas13 @ 2006-10-09T10:43:00

2006-10-09T18:03:13Z

So on the way to school today I saw a dead dog. Someone ran over it. Seriously, who would do that? Or even if you did hit them, unfortunatly, who wouldn't pull over to see if it's okay? That poor thing. It was something that I did not want to see first thing in the morning. It made me sad. ;(
This Sunday is the one year, I guess you could call it, anniversary of my grandpa dying. I miss him so much. I still feel guilty for not seeing him as much as pssible. The last time I saw him was a month before he died. That's so bad. My grandma is trying to get the family together to go to the cemetary. But maybe she should stop accusing people of stealing from her, and maybe everyone would go there. But really, it's something that you should be able to do by yourself. She just wants everyone there as an audience and we're not going. I want to go, but I wanna go by myself. I know I'm going to cry and I don't want to cry around everyone.

simplywas13 @ 2006-09-18T12:16:00

2006-09-18T19:29:30Z

So I totally failed my math test. I need to stop procrastinating and I really need to learn how to use my damn graphing calculator. That thing is the devil.
I'm so tired. I don't even remember going to bed Saturday night. I apparently kicked off everything off of my bed and went to sleep. I don't remember doing that or turning off my light. But the kicker was at 3:25am I woke up to pee and I had no pants on. Apparently I was awake enough to know that I didn't want to go to sleep in jeans, but not awake enough to look for pajama pants. Like everyone said, I wonder what I was dreaming about. It wouldn't be the first time that I've had scandalous dreams. Haha!!
I really need to clean. (I figure I'm just gonna write whatever is in my mind). My room is bad, but you know. I have more important things, like homework, to do instead of clean. I just wish my dad would realize that so he can stop threatening me to clean it. The more you yell at me, the less I'm gonna want to clean. Douchebag!!
I've been watching the new season of Ellen. I love that show. She's amazing. But she's on a kick about her life list. It's made me think. I should make one. Buit I think mine will be stupid. Oh well, you never know unless you try. Maybe I can make a difference in the world or at least someone's life.
I'm so sick of couples. Why is it when your in the mood to throw rocks at couples and anyone doing anything of the PDA's sort, you see them all the time. I wish I could have someone to just hang out with, go to the movies, kiss. Whatever. I guess if it happens, it happens. Until then, I can be lonely. One is the loneliest number.

simplywas13 @ 2006-09-12T17:00:00

2006-09-13T00:07:27Z

So I finally got to upload all of my pictures. Hooray!! So follow the cut to the picture madness.

All my hair that I cut off.

Mitch and Kristen sleeping together. Hehe!

Nieces Ashley and Alyssa at Alyssa's ballet recital.

Billy pointing at me and he doesn't even know it.

Guy from Motion City Soundtrack. I have 2 of Justin the singer, but Steph is afraid, so I wont show them.

Forrest looking geek chic.

"No girls!!"

I went to the aquarium and kinda took some cool pics.

This larakeet was my favorite. He was attacking the wet floor sign.

It's a Mr. Potato Head in the octopus tank. Trust me to find it.

simplywas13 @ 2006-09-09T18:22:00

2006-09-10T01:24:28Z

So getting asked if I'm a lesbian is kinda weird. I'm sorry if I'm staring. I'm just kealous. I wish I had someone to make out with: drunk or sober. God, I wish cute guys liked me. Why do I always have ugly guys liking me????

simplywas13 @ 2006-09-08T12:20:00

2006-09-08T19:19:11Z

HELP!!!!!

I'm so scared of my new photo class. I don't think I can do it. I have to stop second guessing myself. I probably think I can't do it because it's advanced. Aren't you always afraid of the unknown???

I'll write more later.