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When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
27 November 2007 @ 02:10 pm
Posting from Stephys sidekick. Waiting for Fall Out Boy to start. I are sooo sunburnt. Will write more laterz.
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
16 August 2007 @ 01:03 pm

I have got to stop reading those romance novels. Shit like that can never happen. But thye're so good. Sherilyn Kenyon, Christine Feehan, Mary Janice Davidson, Laurell K. Hamilton, Norah Roberts.
But see, my books are vampire oriented. So it puts more ideas in my head. I've even started dreaming like the books. Man, I need to stop living in my awesome dream world, and start living in my dull, boring real world.

 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
30 July 2007 @ 12:54 pm

Projekt Revolution was the shit.
One of the best shows I have ever been to.
It would have been perfect if we were closer, but at least I got to go.
I am in love with Jimmy Urine, the singer of MSI. He is fucking amazing.
HIM was so good and I got to hear 3 new songs, can't wait for the new album. Ville looked so hot in his beret.
Taking Back Sunday was so good, even though Adam was preaching like he was a baptist minister.
My Chemical Romance was amazing. I am in love with Gerard again. He kept touching himself. I missed the kiss between him and Frank just to get Alicia gum. They played a mixture of old and new and they were amazing.
Linkin Park owns my heart. They were soooo good. Everyone kept singing along with their stuff. I'm sure I pissed off the ugly bitch in front of me cause I kept screaming along to every song from all the bands. Oh well, she was ugly so who cares. Chester is so hot. I'm seriously thinking of going next year, if my car will work by then. Pics coming soon.

 
 
Current Music: Faggot- MSI
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
16 June 2007 @ 12:57 am
So while I should be sleeping right now since I have to get up in like 5 hours for work, I decided I needed to reflect. I have been thinking that I have been out of high school now for 5 years. I'm halfway to my high school reunion. What do I have to show for it? I mean, I like my life. If I could change some things, I would. But everyone wants to change stuff in my life. My niece graduated today. I am so proud of her. But all I can keep thinking is when I graduated from elementary school, she was only a year old. Damn, now I feel old. I'm finally done with school, for now. I really needed a break. This summer should be awesome. I finally got a car. Too bad it doesn't run. But when I get it all fixed up, it's going to be awesome. I'm working a little more, letting them know that I'm ok to teach someone how to do things there. It's not that hard, but I feel like I have finally proven myself. Now I'm not Sarah's friend that we hired. Now I'm just Jessica. It's a good feeling. My dad is always on my ass, but what are you going to do? He always needs to be in charge; it's my way or the highway. Nothing I can really do but just deal. My best friend just got engaged. I'm SOOOOOO happy for her, she really deserves this. But now I'm wondering when will I find someone for me? When will it be my turn. I'm so happy that she found someone, but I am so jealous. But I'm living vicariously through her. I realize, I've been picky. But I'm not pretty and I'm fat. The only thing I have going for me are my boobs, and even then, they're cute only with the bra. What have I to offer anyone? I've pretty much gotten used to the fact that I'm going to be alone. Bridget Jones but fatter where she's the only single girl in her friend's circle. But I'm not going to have Hugh Grant lusting after me, let alone Colin Firth. I'm a hopeless romantic that believes that everyone finds their soulmates and they live happily ever after. I have to stop reading those fairy tales and romance novels. It just puts ideas in my head. But I do wish the best for her. She's going to have an awesome wedding since I'm the maid of honor, and an even awesomer (?) life with Shawn. I love you Alicia. If anyone deserves this, it's you. Don't mind the bitter single girl. Haha. I wish I could live in my dreams. They are the greatest. I always end up with the guy, or I get to hookup with the star. But now it's time to start living in the now, not in dreams. So I'll see you when I go to sleep. Until then...




*posted also in my blog*
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Stolen-Dashborad Confessionals
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
19 May 2007 @ 02:32 pm
My b-day was so much fun. Nice how I'm finally writing about it a week later. I'm so glad that Sarah, Carolyn, and Marie went. It would not have been the same without them. It was perfect. I think I'm starting a tradition.
Then on my actual b-day I went to Disneyland with my dad. That was so much fun too. I got a b-day pin and I was wished a happy b-day by more people that day then any other time in my life combined. It was awesome. I love Disneyland. They had it all set up for the Pirates premiere. Plus I got to ride Splash Mountain. It was supposed to be closed and was to "offically" open on Friday, but they opened it to test it. They put in new tracks. Just so you know, they added another drop. So now there's 3 from little to BIG. Haha! Now I gotta concentrate on finals. Thank god that this semester is almost over. I can't wait until May 31st. It needs to come quicker.


I hate being selfish. But you know what, I'm allowed. Thanks for nothing.

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Current Music: If I Was Your Vampire-Marilyn Manson
 
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
02 May 2007 @ 11:17 am
So I'm excited but nervous for my birthday. 11 days to go. I'm worried that not everybody is going to get along. But I hope it's fun. I have like a month left of school, it went by so quickly. I'm gonna miss my dance class. It's so much fun, definetly taking it again next semster. I have a photo project I have to do. Darrell is going to expect so much from me, I don't want to be stressed. But I don't think that's going to happen. Dad's still being a douchebag a lot of the time. I think he might be bipolar. He'll be nice one minute, but the next start to yell. Dealing with it is not fun.

Life: Please work out for me.
 
 
Current Music: I Want You Back-*N SYNC
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
10 April 2007 @ 02:03 pm
Easter sucked. It was another Sunday. Went to the movies and had Taco Bell for dinner. I know, I'm awesome. The only thing that made it a holiday was that I got off 2 hours early. I got to come home and take a nap. But as soon as I actually fall asleep, in walks my dad and starts yelling at me about my room. He was mad that I was on Spring Break and I didn't clean. Boo freaking hoo, it's my break I'm not gonna clean. He needs a hobby that has nothing to do with me.

Tonite, staying at school until 10. Was here at 9:10 for my math class. went out to lunch at 11:30. Came back at 1:45 and I'm staying until then. Kill me now.
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
04 April 2007 @ 11:43 am

So I heard the same song twice within 15 minutes of each other.

It was "(Everything I Do) I Do It For You" by Bryan Adams.

It was on KOST 103.5 and on the soft rock channel 919.

Is this a sign?

If it is, what's it supposed to be?

Or am I just reading too much into it and wishing it was a sign?

 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
26 March 2007 @ 11:16 am
So I'm not having a good time. I've lost all my confidence in my photography. I know I'm not a bad one and sometimes I'm good, but I've just lost all confidence. This sucks so hard. Plus the one weekend where I really wanted to get drunk and forget the week before, I don't. Why am I always at scanalous parties with scandal going on around me, never with me. I'm always tired because of school. So I sleep all the time. I love living in my dreams, amazing things happen to me in them. Too bad my dreams aren't real, I would be the happiest ever.
 
 
Current Music: When You Say Nothing At All- Alison Krauss
 
 
When I fall asleep, your face is all I see
07 March 2007 @ 03:31 pm
Wow, I haven't written here in a while. My so called "best friend" moved to Vegas to be with her 38 year old boyfriend. It's not really sad seeing as I only really saw her when I worked with her. Which is stupid since I live 3 blocks away from her. Lord knows it's hard to hang out with someone who is soooo far away. I went to go see Hollywood Men. They were amazing. I'm hooked. I wanna go for my b-day. I've been really busy with school. But I like it. I love my ballroom dance class. I love learning how to actually dance, even if some of the guys in the class are hopeless. But I've been soo busy lately since I have 3 night classes. Oh man. Plus, I wanna get drunk, but I can't seeing as the only days I would be able to drink I work the next day, early. Maybe I should just start early. That sounds like a plan. I'm getting really lonely too. I don't get to hang out with my friends as much as I would like too. Damn school. I wanna find someone to be with my I'm a realist, it's not gonna happen. My paents finally met my brother-in-law. I finally got to hang out with both sisters. My dad's still being a controlling douchebag, needing everything to go his way or else. Sometimes I wish I can get a new life. But I like some aspects of my life now that I wouldn't want to change. I guess you have to take the good wih the bad. Whatever.
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